Time with Family

I am a little behind on posting!  Life got busy after my last post with Christmas and some traveling.  So let's get up to speed. 


A fun Christmas Day tradition...goofy picture
This Christmas Season was so very special to me. Christmas gifts and time with family take on a new meaning when you have been diagnosed with Stage 4 Cancer.   



New Year's Eve at IU Simon Cancer Center
With the kids out of school for break, I was so excited that they could go with me to Treatment #7.  Sadly, when we arrived, we found out that they could not go back with me.  Flu season had hit, and they would not allow children in the infusion area.  But they were troopers, hanging out together in the waiting room for over three hours while visions of Cayman danced in their heads.

Two days later, off we went for a week's vacation in Grand Cayman.  I cannot explain what a blessing this trip was for Ben and me.  I have wished for a long time that I might be able to take the kids to the most beautiful place I had ever been. I will be forever grateful to those who made this possible for us.  The quality family time is irreplaceable and so special to my heart. When you are suddenly given a timeline with no numbers, you want to make every moment with your family count.























Make every moment count!
Blessing to all you who keep us in your prayers!  
Happy New Year!



12-13-14

   Fun Fact...As you may have seen on social media yesterday, 12/ 13/ 14 was the last sequential date of the century,  The next one won't be until 01/ 02/ 2103. Not a date most of us plan on seeing, although I suppose some of our children might.
   12/ 13/ 14 also happened to be my 44th birthday.  My "birthday week" was full of some wonderful blessings, although it was a rough week as well.
   Wednesday was infusion day.  Since my doctor only needs to see me every six weeks right now, I was able to do my treatments in Tipton this time.  My mother-in-law, Charlene, and my sister-in-law, Twilla and my sweet little niece, Annie, came to hang out with me at the hospital.
   As you can see, Annie wasn't too excited about her favorite aunt only having one arm available to hold her during the treatment.  Later though, we had some quality bonding time which was truly one of the best gifts of the week.  I am a baby lover. There is something that just gives me such peace while holding a sleeping baby.
   Unfortunately, this treatment was not so kind to me.  Thursday was a rough day, but my co-workers brightened it by taking me to Olive Garden for my birthday.
   Friday, I was feeling better. I spent the day hanging out with my dear friend, Susan.  Susan days are always a blessing.
   Friday evening, my family took me to dinner.  A great night full of laughs with my husband, my kids, my parents and my brother's family. I just don't know how I would make it through without my family and the blessings they are everyday.
   Yesterday, I woke up feeling terrible. Even so, I was one of the coordinators for Jubilee Christmas at our church, and I didn't want to miss it.  Helping other families at Christmas time reminds me how fortunate I have always been, and no child should ever not feel the magic of Christmas.  We had a wonderful turnout of volunteers, as we shared breakfast and then gift wrapping with nine local families.  I have a difficult time asking others for help when I need it, so as I look into some of these mothers' eyes, I think about how hard it may have been for them to ask for this help.  Even though our struggles are all different, we are all struggling in some way, and we are here to help each other. 
   Yesterday afternoon was Ben's company Christmas party.  This was our 18th Beck's Christmas party and even though I felt horrible, I still really wanted to go.  As I was sitting at the table with my coat on yet holding a cold water bottle on my head, Ben and I decided it was a good idea to leave early.  I guess I have ended up with this yucky virus several of my kids have had. 
   So while I am feeling a little better today, I vow to spend the day relaxing in my recliner and prepare for another busy week ahead.
   Thank you for all the wonderful birthday wishes yesterday. While yes social media has some negatives, you cannot deny how great it is to receive so many birthday posts from friends and family, near and far on Facebook! 
   God Bless!
  

Life Forever Altered

Today I got to spend the day with my mom and my sister-in-law, Kesha, while I did treatment package #5.  We had fun chatting it up while I got my two infusions (Herceptin and Perjeta) and two injections (Lupron and Xgeva). But I have to say the best part of the day was leaving the Taxotere OUT of the the equation!!!  Well and maybe Noodles afterwards ;)

So now I will keep doing this every three weeks as we try to keep everything in control. I have to admit, there is a wave of anxiety and fear that follows the flood of joy when your doctor tells you, we have it under control right now.  While it is different, it is almost as overwhelming as the fear and anxiety as the diagnosis.  My life is forever altered with the what-ifs of the my unknown future.  There are often moments consumed with when and what the next battle ahead of me will be. While so very thankful that we got this one under control, I find myself facing yet another "new normal" and looking for some semblance of the Lori I was before cancer.

Thanks for always having my back #teamlori.  
God bless you all!

October Highlights


October has finally come to a close.  It was a long month of many supportive blessings as well as many struggles.  Below, I thought I would share some of the highlights that made this month special for me. 

October 5
IU Health invited me to go onto the field for the Colts Breast Cancer Awareness event at Lucas Oil Stadium.  This was so special to me to share this moment with 74 other breast cancer survivors. 

October 18
Dan Young had their 3rd annual car wash and raised almost $1,000 for the Women's Fund of the Tipton County Foundation to use for breast cancer awareness in our county!





October 21 
Last year, I was thrilled when IU Health Tipton Hospital agreed to work with me to create "Turn Pink with Tipton" Breast Health Awareness Event.  I was honored to help plan this event again this year.  Nearly 80 women attended this informative evening with two doctors speaking and many educational booths and free health screenings. 

 

October 30
The Vera Bradley Breast Cancer Foundation announced that they had raised $3,200,000 in the last year for breast cancer research at the IU Health Simon Cancer Center.  My doctor, Dr. Cathy Miller is pictured here in the check presentations!  So proud to say she is my Oncologist!!


Hope, Joy & Laughter...
Carry them with you, wherever you go

And don't put off getting your mammogram! 

Please Give Me Some Good News

"You gain strength, courage, and confidence, by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.  You must do the thing which you think you cannot do."  Eleanor Roosevelt

I have stared fear in the face for over nine weeks now. The life-changing words I heard on August 27, forever ringing in my ears, brought me to a new place. I have had some of the lowest and most anxious moments in my life facing the realities of my MBC diagnosis. But, I have also had some of the most amazing and memorable moments shared with family and friends, and look so forward to those to come!
This week, I have anxiously stepped into the next phase...which has turned out to be a good phase God has blessed me with. 
Monday, I had a CT scan of my chest and neck. Two long days later, as I sat in the exam room, heart pounding, waiting for Dr. Miller to come in, all I could think was..."Please just give me some good news." I am excited to share with all of you that Dr. Miller says everything is looking as she hoped and my fourth Taxotere chemo treatment will be the last one for now! She hugged me and held my hands as I cried tears of joy. It is so strengthening to be blessed with a doctor that you have complete confidence in. 
I will continue to get Herceptin and Perjeta infusions every three weeks. While these treatments have their own side effects...nothing as ugly as the chemo!
I really wish that I could put into words what this news feels like...how thankful, how blessed, how fortunate, how empowered I feel right now. There are no words. I couldn't do it without the support and prayers of my amazing #teamlori.  Now we keep bravely marching on into the uncertain future...together...one step at a time.  


Yesterday, I was so excited to be with my a dear friend, Deb, from St. Louis.  We had such a beautiful day catching up while I finished up treatment #4.  What a blessing to have a friend make a special trip to Indiana to spend the day with me.  Thanks Deb!  

Appreciate everyday...remember to find something beautiful and find something to laugh about each and everyday.           

National Metastatic Breast Cancer Awareness Day

Because October 13 is Metastatic Breast Cancer Awareness Day, I wanted to share some information about the disease, some that might help with some common misconceptions about metastatic breast cancer. Although a lot of the information is not all positive things we want to hear, remember that We....me, Ben, my kids, my family and friends are taking this on in the most positive of ways. It is absolutely possible to be realistic and optimistic at the same time.   

There are over 150,000 of us in this country living with (not dying of) our disease...as the majority of us are not dying of it at this moment. There is hope! Thanks to the new targeted drugs, we are living longer.  And the longer we live, the more time it gives researchers to find the next new great drug or better yet...the CURE! 


I believe in the power of Hope and the power of Prayer  I am so grateful for doctors, researchers, new treatments, the amazing people I’ve met from this journey, my TEAM and for life itself. 

Love to you all!


The following facts are straight from www.mbcn.org.

MBC Fact a Day - 31 days of October

MBC also known as Stage IV is cancer that has spread outside of the breast to other organs such as bones, liver, lung or brain. This process is called metastasis.(pronounced as Me-TAS-ta-sis) 

2. What happens when breast cancer spreads?
Breast cancer that spreads to another organ, such as bones or liver, is still breast cancer and does not become bone cancer or liver cancer. Under a microscope, the tumor cells will still look and act like breast cancer and will be treated as breast cancer.

3. Who gets metastatic breast cancer?
No one brings metastatic disease on themselves. The sad truth is that anyone who has had an earlier stage of breast cancer can have a metastatic recurrence and some women have metastatic disease on their initial diagnosis of cancer--despite mammograms and early detection!

4. Why does Cancer metastasize? (pronounced as Me-TAS-ta-size)Researchers can't predict who will get metastatic disease, but they're working on the answers. Early detection is important, but it is not a cure and does not guarantee MBC will not occur in the future.

5. What are the statistics on incidence of metastatic breast cancer?
Approximately 20-30% of patients with an early stage cancer will have their cancer return as metastatic, even if they were told their early stage cancer had been "cured." Another 8% of new breast cancer cases are found to be metastatic at their initial diagnosis.

6. What is the main difference between early stage breast cancer and metastatic breast cancer?
Metastatic Breast Cancer (mbc) is treatable but no longer curable. Treatment is lifelong and focuses on preventing the spread of the disease and managing symptoms. The goal is for patients to live productive and comfortable lives for as long as possible.

7. How is metastatic breast cancer treated?
Depending primarily on the kind or subtype of mbc, patients may be on either targeted therapies or systemic chemotherapy. Radiation and surgery are also sometimes used.

8. What are the different kinds (subtypes) of metastatic breast cancer?
Subtypes for early stage and metastatic breast cancer are the same: 65% of patients have Hormonal (estrogen or progesterone driven), also called ER+/PR+; 20% have Her2+(fueled by a protein identified as Her2 neu) and 15% have Triple Negative Breast Cancer (TNBC- which does not have any of the 3 above known biomarkers: ER. PR or HER2).

9. How many women and men die of breast cancer each year?
Approximately 40,000 die of breast cancer each year and that number is essentially unchanged over the last 20 years. All deaths from breast cancer are caused by metastatic breast cancer.

10. How many people are living with mbc in the US? 
Although statistics are not collected, it is estimated from studies that there are over 155,000 women and men living with mbc in the US--and doing our best to live well!

11. Is metastatic breast cancer a chronic disease?
Not yet, but that is an important goal. As researchers identify more and better treatments, MBC could become a chronic disease like diabetes or HIV/AIDS, where patients can be stable on medications for 20 or more years.

12. How much is spent on research funding for metastatic breast cancer?
Shockingly, a very small percentage (estimated at less than 5%) is spent on studying the process of metastasis and why and how cancer spreads, even though metastasis is what causes breast cancer to become a deadly disease.

13. What is Metastatic Breast Cancer Awareness Day?
October 13 - One day is not enough but it's a start for year round awareness of what mbc is and why it's important for all of us.
http://bit.ly/1eiKyFf

14. Do men get breast cancer?
Yes, men do get breast cancer and they are often misdiagnosed initially. They represent about 1% of the new cases of breast cancer and 1% of the deaths from metastatic breast cancer. (410 deaths in 2012)

15. Do young women get metastatic breast cancer?
YES. For young women under 40: 5% of the new cases of breast cancer and 3% of the deaths. Metastatic breast cancer is the leading cause of cancer deaths in this age group. For young women under 50: 27% of the new cases of breast cancer and 16% of the deaths.

16. How is metastatic breast cancer monitored?
Usually MBC is monitored by periodic imaging tests (CT, PET or bone scans or MRIs), blood tests measuring tumor markers and assessment of how the patient is feeling.

17. How often are people living with metastatic breast cancer scanned?
Usually we are scanned every 3 months; if metastases remain stable or shrink, scans may be done less frequently (eg every 6 months).

18. What is scanxiety?
Scanxiety is scan-anxiety and occurs in most MBC patients as their scan date approaches. Good test results are either stability (mets not growing or spreading) or NED (no evidence of disease)

19. What is NED (no evidence of disease) and how does it differ from being 'in remission' or being 'cancer free'?
No Evidence of Disease means that the metastases are no longer detectable on an imaging scan. This is great news, but because breast cancer cells are still circulating in the body, treatment continues. 'In remission' is an older term and not usually used in metastatic breast cancer. Once you are metastatic, you are never 'cancer-free' but being NED or being stable are still the sweetest words you can hear from your oncologist.

20. Why does treatment for metastatic disease seem 'less aggressive' than treatment for early stage disease? Why does everything feel less urgent, despite a much more serious prognosis?
Treatment of early stage disease focuses on curing the cancer and therefore is immediate and aggressive. Because there is no cure for mbc at this time, treatment focuses on controlling the disease and permits a more measured, long-term approach to therapy, with hopefully more attention directed to long term quality of life and reducing adverse side effects.

21. People often ask 'Why do you look so good, if you have an incurable cancer?'
Metastatic breast cancer has its ups and downs. Sometimes, we may be feeling relatively good and are living with stable disease. Other times we may be experiencing a lot of side effects, but if hair loss isn't one of them, people may not notice. Even when the disease is progressing, we may still look ok, up to a certain point.

22. What are clinical trials and are they a 'last resort' when all other treatments fail?
Not at all. Clinical trials are controlled treatment studies on new drugs and are the method used to obtain FDA approval of new treatments. They should be an option considered right from the beginning of treatment for MBC patients, along with standard treatments. A clinical trial may or may not be right for an individual and should be discussed with the oncologist.

23. What are the types of clinical trials and what's the advantage to participating?
Phase 1 and 2 trials involve a relatively small sample size of people (sometimes less than 100) and determine dosage, safety and effectiveness of the new drug. If results are favorable, a phase 3 study is launched which is on a large scale, involving multiple sites across the country (and sometimes worldwide). It compares the current standard of care to the new treatment. While there are always risks and benefits, participation, especially in a phase 3 study, can give someone access to the latest promising drug, long before it comes to market. http://bit.ly/17INCFX

24. What does it take in terms of time, money and research to bring a new drug to market?
On average, it takes 8-10 years and approximately $1 Billion for a new drug to go from a chemistry model to FDA approval. Overall only 11% of drugs that start in clinical trials are eventually approved, but 34% of Phase 3 Clinical Trial drugs are approved. "Every advance in breast cancer treatment and care has been the result of a clinical trial."

25. What has been the level of breast cancer research funding over the last few years?
Unfortunately, there has been a big drop in funding in government research (down $70 Million since 2010) and SGKomen (down $15 Million) and this is for ALL breast cancer research, not just metastatic research. The good news is that the number of grants awarded to study metastases and recurrence by the National Cancer Institute (NCI) and the Dept of Defense Breast Cancer Research Program (DODBCRP) has increased in the last 2 years.

26. The first thing many people say, when they get breast cancer, is that they have no family history, so how can this be happening to them?
Family history is a risk factor for less than 15% of those diagnosed, which means that 85% of breast cancers are not caused by family history.

27. What does being BRCA positive mean?
Having an abnormal or mutated BRCA1 or BRCA2 gene means that the risk of developing breast or ovarian cancer dramatically increases, but not everyone with a BRCA mutation will get cancer. Mutations in these genes are rare in the general population, higher in certain ethnic subgroups, such as those of Ashkenazi Jewish descent. Overall, BRCA mutations account for 5% of all breast cancers.

28. What is Inflammatory Breast Cancer?
Inflammatory breast cancer (IBC) is a rare and very aggressive disease in which cancer cells block lymph vessels in the skin of the breast. This type of breast cancer is called "inflammatory" because the breast often looks swollen and red, or "inflamed." Because it is difficult to diagnose and often mistaken for other conditions, patients usually have IBC at stage III or IV. http://1.usa.gov/jrbWt

29. Is there a difference between palliative care and hospice care?
Yes! Although many people think they are synonymous, palliative care should be part of each person's cancer care right from the beginning. Palliative care is treatment of side effects, stress and pain. Studies have shown that palliative care not only improves quality of life, but also can extend life by several months.

30.Why should everyone care about metastatic breast cancer?
Early detection does not guarantee a cure, and treating early stage breast cancer does not mean one never has to worry about cancer again. Metastatic breast cancer can occur 5, 10 or 15+ years after a person's original diagnosis and successful treatment. ~20-30% of women initially diagnosed with an early stage cancer will go on to be diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer.

31. What's the message from those of us living with metastatic breast cancer for this last day of Breast Cancer Awareness Month?
Live Every Day! Let's celebrate that we survived another Pinktober!http://bit.ly/16NExkp

Treatment Package #3

Wednesday, my awesome sister-in-law, Brandi took me to spend a long day at the IU Health Simon Cancer Center for treatment package #3.   She kept me entertained and well fed throughout our adventure! As you can see, she was quite impressed with my ability to obtain Class A Hazardous Drugs. Lots of laughter!
Thanks for a fun day Brandi!                           I am feeling pretty good..mostly fatigued. I have enjoyed two quiet days at home resting!  Although most of you know, sitting around is not easy for me to do!! 
Appreciate everyday...remember to find something beautiful and find something to laugh about each and everyday.










Looking Beyond the Pink Ribbons

October.  What do you think of when you hear the word October? 
Football, soccer, volleyball, pumpkins, harvest, costumes, candy, chili, bonfires, leaves, ghosts, skeletons, haunted houses, black, yellow, brown, orange, gold...
These are the things that I generally thought of when I heard the word October..until two years ago. October and everything in it turned pink. Not kidding, even some of the pumpkins turned pink

Suddenly there was pink support for breast cancer everywhere I looked.  The thing is, I think it was always there before...I just never really paid that much attention to it, nor did I think much about what it meant. 

So as you are surrounded by pink ribbons this month, don't lose sight of who and what those ribbons stand for. The importance of awareness, learning your risk, and learning the benefits of early detection...but also all of the women and men who are being diagnosed with it, those who are living with it, and those who it has taken from us.

Let the pink ribbons remind you that breast cancer is real. It isn't so pretty in pink. So please don't try to hide from it, or think that it surely couldn't happen to you. Educate yourself, do self-exams, and schedule your mammograms.  Breast cancer will happen to 1 in 8 us, and then 20-30% of our breast cancer cases will become metastatic. It cannot be prevented and it cannot be cured. Breast cancer is not one disease on its own.  There is a range of types and treatments meaning that not everyone has the same future.  Survivorship does not universally apply. Research is so important to the future of so many women including myself!  If you can...please support breast cancer research too!!  If you are unsure of who to support, check out the Vera Bradley Foundation for Breast Cancer.  They directly support research being done by my oncologist, Dr. Kathy Miller.

So am I sick of pink? No...I could never be sick of all of the pink events and sports teams that remind me of all the amazing support in our community.  I could never be tired of something that is helping to spread the awareness. It makes me feel so blessed to be a part of it all!  
Thank you to all of you, especially our youth, who have shown your support by going pink this October.  Just remember what it stands for.



Reminder..don't let all the pink overpower the many other awareness issues of October including Domestic Violence Awareness, Dyslexia Awareness, and Downs Syndrome Awareness.










Metastatic Cancer...What Does That Mean?


First, I have to say again, it has been absolutely amazing and inspiring to know that I have so much support and and so many prayers from so many people.  Please know how much my family and I appreciate your support!  

I know everyone has a lot of questions.  I had, and still have, a lot of questions. Some of the questions have solid answers, and unfortunately, some of the questions have to remain unanswered because there is no cure, and no one knows for sure.
So today, let's go with some of the information that we do know.    
               
What is Metastatic Breast Cancer?
Metastatic Breast Cancer is also known as Stage IV or Advanced Breast Cancer. Metastases occurs when cancer spreads beyond the breast and lymph nodes to other areas.. most commonly the bones, lungs, liver or brain.  Mine decided to spread to my upper sternum.

What is HER2+ breast cancer?
HER2+ is a protein...aka human epidermal growth factor receptor 2.  A healthy cell has a normal quantity of HER2 proteins. However, a cancer cell grows when the cells' surface has an overabundance  (100x more) of the HER2 proteins, making it one of the most aggressive breast cancers. The cancer cells make an excess of HER2 due to a gene mutation. The good thing is that this particular gene mutation is not something you can inherit from a parent.  

Did the doctors not get all of the cancer the first time?
I am going to use this quote from www.mbcn.org because their answer pretty much covers it. 
 "You did nothing wrong. Our medical team did nothing wrong. Metastatic breast cancer happens... at any time... regardless of your age, whether you did chemo, radiation, had a mastectomy, had a bilateral mastectomy, ate well, took vitamins, exercised regularly, prayed, had positive thoughts, had negative thoughts, got regular mammograms, did self exams religiously, had a tiny stage 1 primary tumor, or a stage 0 primary tumor, or a stage 3 primary tumor, or never even had primary breast cancer. It doesn't matter."

What is my treatment plan?
A diagnosis of Metastatic Breast Cancer pretty much means you are on a treatment plan forever. A treatment is used for as long as it works. A treatment may start failing when the cancer cells learn to outsmart the drug.  Then we just move to a new treatment plan. 
Currently I recieve three infusions every three weeks. Infusion therapy is intravenous (IV) administration.
Taxotere or Docetaxol is an anti-cancer chemotherapy drug that interferes with the growth and spread of cancer.  
Herceptin or Trastuzumab attaches itself to the HER2 receptors and blocks them from receiving growth signals, and flags them for destruction from the immune system.  
Perjeta or Pertuzumab is a relatively new drug, just getting approved by the FDA in 2013.  It also works by attaching to the HER2 receptors to block them from receiving growth signals.  It works well with Herceptin because it targets a different area on the HER2 receptor than the Herceptin does.
Xgeva or Denosumab is an injection I receive every six weeks to help strengthen the bone and reduce bone pain caused by the Metastatic cancer that has moved to the bone.

Hope this helps answer some questions!  Have a wonderful weekend!!!  God Bless!

1. No one dies from breast cancer that remains in the breast. Metastasis occurs when cancerous cells travel to a vital organ and that is what threatens life.
2. Metastasis refers to the spread of cancer to different parts of the body, typically the bones, liver, lungs and brain.
3. An estimated 155,000 Americans are currently living with metastatic breast cancer. Metastatic breast cancer accounts for approximately 40,000 deaths annually in the U.S.
4. Treatment for metastatic breast cancer is lifelong and focuses on control of the disease and quality of life.
5. About 6% to 10% of people are Stage IV from their initial diagnosis.
6. Early detection does not guarantee a cure. Metastatic breast cancer can occur 5, 10 or 15 years after a person's original diagnosis and successful treatment checkups and annual mammograms.
7. 20% to 30% of people initially diagnosed with early stage disease will develop metastatic breast cancer.
8. Young people, as well as men, can be diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer.
9. Like early stage breast cancer, there are different types of metastatic breast cancer.
10. Treatment choices are guided by breast cancer type, location and extent of metastasis in the body, previous treatments and other factors.
11. Metastatic breast cancer is not an automatic death sentence. Although most people will ultimately die of their disease, some will live long and productive lives.
12. There are no definitive prognostic statistics for metastatic breast cancer. Every patient and their disease is unique.
13. To learn more about National Metastatic Breast Cancer Awareness Day on October 13 and to access resources specifically for people living with metastatic breast cancer and their caregivers, visit www.mbcn.org.

Glad You're on MyTeam

I had my second round of treatments on Wednesday.   I had three infusions...Taxotere Herceptin, and Perjeta.  (Someday soon, I will write a post explaining more about those three drugs.)  I was blessed to have spent the day with two amazing friends, Becky and Merilee.  They did a great job at keeping me laughing and happy all day...including having our own little pizza party.  
So far, I feel fortunate that the treatments are mostly just causing aching and fatigue...and no nausea!  The chemo has stolen most of my hair now so now you just never know what hair I may be wearing.


I was able to go to Jake's Soccer Senior Night the next day.  What a blessing to be able to so proudly walk out onto the field with Jake.  What a wonderful young man he has grown up to be.  Goodness high school goes so fast!


The Boys High School Soccer Team













Which leads me to "Team Lori." Thanks to a hashtag that my son David started, and two wonderful friends, Dawn & Kalen, who created shirts and bracelets, my #teamlori has grown to hundreds of people.  When "I" is replaced by "WE" even illness becomes wellness. I need all of you to know how much this team means to me...all of the shirts, bracelets, pink shoelaces, hugs, prayers, greeting cards, and gifts.  Your team support not only is what helps get me through, it also makes my family feel stronger.

Thanks for being on my team!

The Girls High School Soccer Team




Good Morning America

December 13, 2070 
"Good Morning America" Taping 
Prius Williams Broadcaster for GMA

End of commercial break
Prius: The fun continues today on Good Morning America, as we have Lori Tragesser here celebrating her 100th birthday.  Now what makes Lori's 100th birthday special?  Well, Lori was in the first group of incredible women to be cured of HER2+ Stage IV Metastatic Breast Cancer.  She is here today to tell us little about that journey, and give us some advice on how we should live our lives.
Prius: looks to Lori   Lori it is great to have your here.
Lori: looking a little nervous but smiling from ear to ear with her curly dark brown hair because she refuses to be gray.  It is great to be here Prius.  Prius? Interesting name. Honey, did your parents name you after their car?
Prius: looking confused No I don't think so.
Lori: Anyways, I always told my kids to look out, I was going to live to be 100!
Prius: That is great!  So your cancer diagnosis was way back in 2014?
Lori:  Oh yes 2014...Well Prius, you weren't even born yet, were you?
Prius: laughing No, but my mom was born in 2015.
Lori:  Oh my yes, well anyways, on August 27, 2014, my son's birthday, I was diagnosed with Stage IV Metastatic Breast Cancer that was ER+ PR+ HER2+.
Prius:  Wow that had to be scary because there wasn't a cure then right?
Lori:  Right. It was treatable but not curable.  Those are scary words to hear when you have five children ages 18, 16, 14, 12, and 10.
Prius: So this was your second diagnosis of breast cancer, correct?
Lori:   Yes, but this time the cancer had metastasized to my manubrium, which is the upper part of your sternum.  Once breast cancer had spread beyond your breasts or lymph system in your body, it was considered Stage IV Metastatic. 
Prius:  Those had to be hard words to hear.
Lori:  They were because back then, the doctors couldn't tell you when or where the cancer would show up next, just that it likely would.  Your life changes in an instant.  You look at everything differently.  I was so scared because I had this amazing husband and five young children and had so much I still wanted to do with them.  So I told myself  to just deal with it one day at a time, and stay strong and positive, and show this cancer thing who's boss.
Prius: So what types of treatments were you given?
Lori:  I started out with an infusion concoction of Taxotere, Herceptin, and Perjeta.  Taxotere was a chemotherapy drug, you know we lost our hair when we had to take that stuff?
Prius looks horrified
Lori: Herceptin and Perjeta were targeted infusion therapies for HER2+ Cancer.  Perjeta was a new promising drug that led to prolonging lives.  While these infusions had some not so fun side effects, they were working targeted treatments as we waited for a cure.
Prius: So how did your life change?
Lori:  Well I tried to start living life to it's fullest...spending as much quality time with my family and friends as possible.  You see Prius, we all have a mental list of things we want to do, people we want to spend more time with and places we want to go. But we let ourselves get so bogged down with being busy that we just don't take the time. So I just started taking the time and working on that list. 
Prius: And I am guessing you had a wonderful support system?
Lori:   My support system is what helped me stay positive and fight through it as researchers aggressively worked to find a cure.   I don't know what I would have done without all of my family (which is quite large) and my amazing friends. Even my community...let me tell you, the town of Tipton, Indiana was one giving and loving and supportive community.  I know I am here today because of the support and prayers from all these amazing people.
Prius:  That is so great Lori.  We are so glad that you are here with us today, and so thankful that researchers and doctors were able to make it possible for women like you to be thriving today at 100 years old. Any advice for our viewers?
Lori: Yes, listen kids, live life to its fullest.  Slow things down a bit, take a look at your life, and enjoy your time... because none of us know when it is our last day. Be thankful for every moment, every memory and every day you are given!
Prius: Great advice!  We are so glad you could be with us today.
Lori: Oh wait...I have a message for my kids, if you don't mind Prius.
Prius:  Sure go ahead.
Lori: looking straight into the camera   Kids, I want you to give me my car keys back.  I mean it! Don't listen to your father! Because I CAN SEE just fine to drive!
Prius: Nervously laughing and looking at her producer for help  Okay well thanks Lori for being on GMA with us today.  Happy 100th Birthday!
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And so this is how we hope and pray the story goes.  
Let's show cancer who's boss!
Thanks for all of your prayers and support!
Love you all!
Lori




 



Thank You for My Pink Day

To the hundreds of friends and students who wore pink on Wednesday...if I could only put into words what this meant to me.  During my 3 1/2 hours of infusions...my phone continued to whistle all day with so many prayers and messages.  Hope I didn't miss any pictures..there were so many! 
God Bless You All!!  
#beatcancer #teamlori

Chapter 2 The Journey Continues

Chapter 2...hmm, I never planned on a Chapter 2.  Actually, I wasn't certain I would ever add another post to this blog.  While the memories had many silver linings, there was enough painfulness that I preferred to forget.  
But I have returned and so the story goes... 
I had this annoying neck pain that would not allow me to sleep on my side. That is my happy way to sleep, so as you can imagine, I was not sleeping well.  Pain coming down the sides of my neck into my collarbones.  I tried everything I could think of...one pillow, two pillows, new pillows, heat, neck massage, but nothing helped.  So when I called my oncologist to get her opinion on what I should do, I was surprised to hear her say a bone scan.  Well one scan led to another until it was determined I needed a bone biopsy of a lytic lesion on my manubrium, which is the top portion of the sternum. 
I am sad to report that they determined it to be breast cancer, the same type as I had before...Estrogen and HER2 receptor positive.  I do not know many other details at this point.  I go to my oncologist and begin treatments on Wednesday.  Update to come. 
We are keeping it real and positive here.  I have am blessed with wonderful and supportive family, friends, and community.  I have five amazing kids and husband who will keep me occupied and laughing.

Please keep us in your prayers as we take on Round 2!  


Stupid Cancer 

Turn Pink with Tipton, A Breast Cancer Awareness Event

I am so excited to share this event with you all.  As many of you know, I work for my county foundation.  Not long after my diagnosis, one of our board members who works at a local car dealership, helped organize a car wash to raise money for breast cancer awareness.  The proceeds were put in the Women's Fund at the Foundation.  With that, I was able to partner with IU Health Tipton Hospital to create "Turn Pink with Tipton," a breast cancer awareness event at Tipton Hospital on Tuesday, October 29.  Ladies, no matter your age, if you are in the Tipton area, please plan to attend. It is never too early or too late to learn about this cancer that will be diagnosed in 1 out of every 8 women throughout our lifetime. We have two wonderful physician speakers.  We will have many different health related booths.  And of course, we have many fun, pink door prizes to give away.  I am so thankful for the wonderful women at IU Health Tipton Hospital who have helped me make this happen! Please join us for a great evening!


One Year Ago Today

One year ago today, I heard the words that no one wants to hear.  "You have Cancer."

Since that day, I have had...
     4 Mammograms
     3 Ultrasounds
     4 ECHOs
     5 biopsies
     17 Herceptin infusions
     11 Taxol chemo infusions
     12 Lupron shots
     2 surgeries
     4 expander fill'er ups
     (That is a lot of needle pokes!!)
     To sit and wait in 13 different waiting rooms
Since that day I have seen amazing acts of kindness...
     12 Cleaning fairies
     Somewhere over 50 delicious meals
     24 rides to my infusions in Indy or Carmel
     Over 100 Get Well cards
     Many useful gifts and care packages 
     Inspirational gifts
     30 women joining my Dirty Girl Run team to raise money for breast cancer research
     Catholic school children giving their penny mass money to my oncologist's research
     4 children's soccer teams dress in pink to support breast cancer awareness
     A car dealership car wash to raise money for breast cancer awareness in my honor
     And what I hold dear to my heart, the countless prayers

Since that day, I have lost...
     Two friends to cancer
     Two breasts
     Several lymph nodes
     Much of my hair
     My eyelashes and eyebrows
     My feeling of invincibility
     Physical strength and endurance
     And wow...a lot of sleep
Since that day, I have gained...
     An even stronger relationship with my amazing husband
     A deeper appreciation for time spent with my five beautiful children
     New friendships with women I may have never known
     Time spent with family & friends that we are normally too busy to spend together
     Stronger friendships with those who were by my side
     Three wonderful nurses whom I now call dear friends
     A chance to participate in a clinical study for breast cancer research
     A chance to help others through their breast cancer journeys
     The boob lift that we always say we wish we could get (Gotta throw that in here, right?)
     The realization that things could always have been a lot worse
     A new appreciation for life
     
     I gained much more than I lost! These are the silver linings, the blessing in disguise! 
     I never dreamed this year would have happened to me.  But it did, and I got through
     it! I'm okay! Now my hope is that I can help others through it too.

Thanks to all who stood by my side!






Preparing for a Mastectomy...Care Package Ideas

The Double Mastectomy Decision
     The decision to have a double mastectomy is not an easy one.  In your head, it quickly makes the most sense...get rid of the boobs, get rid of the cancer.  But of course, it is not that easy.  Your breasts are a part of your body, a part of your self, a part of your sexuality.  Unfortunately, women often have to make this decision quickly.  Suddenly they are not only faced with a cancer diagnosis, but the difficult questions of removal and reconstruction.  It is important to remember that removing both breasts does not completely take away the risk of having breast cancer again. Though it is minimal, there is still some breast tissue left.  Many women choose to remove both for symmetrical reasons, with the hope that they will look the same. 
     In August 2012, I was diagnosed with breast cancer on one side, and only needed a single mastectomy. I was suddenly face with this difficult decision.  A few days later, I was offered a chance to participate in a clinical study which then gave me six months to make this decision.  I feel lucky because this gave me time to think it all through. I ended up having a double mastectomy on February 14, 2013 and reconstruction in July.
     I think it is important to say that I made my decision for me.  That doesn't mean it is the best decision for everyone.  Some women choose to do a lumpectomy.  Some women choose to only remove one side while others remove both.  Some women choose reconstruction, while some do not. Talk it through with your surgeon and your loved ones. Do what feels right and comfortable for you.  It is your body!  
     I was very lucky to have my husband's support throughout this process. When I asked him what he thought I should do, he assured me that he was fine with whatever decisions I made.  It was my body and that I needed to do what I was comfortable with.   He said he didn't marry me for my breasts, that my life and happiness were what mattered.  Just the support I needed.
     Family and friends....remember that this is a difficult, life changing decision.  These women have a long road ahead of them. Even if you do not think it is the decision you would make, be supportive of her decision.  This is not easy for her, and it will not be an easy process.  What she needs from you is support, support, support!

Preparing for a Surgery and Ideas for Gifts or a Care Package
Pillows There are several things that I recommend having after a single or double mastectomy.  My number one favorite items were my Axilla-Pilla pillows.  These microbead heartshaped pillows are so wonderful and have many uses!  After surgery, I found that the most comfortable place to be was the recliner.  I kept one pillow under each arm to add support and comfort. Then when I was able to sleep in the bed again, they helped sleeping on my side be more comfortable.  Even in the car, I used one between me and the seatbelt across my chest. I am telling you...these are a must have!
Pajamas, Socks, Blanket Having at least two pairs of comfy button front pajamas is essential. You will live in these for the next two weeks, and it is no fun trying to get your arms through a T-shirt!  Grab a couple pairs of fuzzy socks and a nice soft blanket too!
Side Table Items Your setup for recovery is important. Before you go in for surgery, set up your space. As I mentioned before, my most comfortable place was in the recliner.  I recommend moving end tables to both sides of your recliner.  It is helpful to have a basket with items that you will need...lip balm, moisturizing lotion, a back scratcher, a brush, nail clippers, mints, gum or your favorite candy.  Don't forget to leave space for you pain medications in the basket. The pain meds do make you a little mentally dazed, so it is a good idea to have a pen and notebook to write down what time you took them.  It is so easy to forget! 
Reading Materials/Electronics  Daytime TV can get a little boring. Have a good book and some new magazines nearby. Treat yourself to some fun classic movies like maybe the Breakfast Club and St. Elmo's Fire. If you do not have an electrical outlet by your recliner, run an extension cord to your table.  This way you can plug in your phone charger and other device chargers.  I kept my laptop with a lap cushion on one of my tables. I ended up working on Shutterfly photo books and made nine of them!
Pre-Surgery Pampering The day before surgery can be stressful. If you can, do something fun and relaxing. You deserve it! Treat yourself to a mani and a pedi.  Go out to your favorite restaurant for a nice dinner.   Friends and family, these would be wonderful pre-surgery gifts.
Post-Surgery Pampering Now if you are like me, it isn't easy to ask for help, or to let others pamper you.  But this is one time in life when you have to do just this...let others help you.  You may need help emptying your drain tubes each day.  You may want someone to wash your hair for you. Let loved ones take care of the cooking, cleaning and laundry for a couple weeks. You need to heal up and rest. 
And remember...you are always in someone's prayers, and you can do this!

This post is dedicated to a friend of mine preparing for a double mastectomy.
Teresa, thanks for the blog post idea.  Hang in there, you can do this!



Surgery Update

I am happy to say that I am home and functioning after my reconstruction surgery today!! 
My surgery was scheduled at 1:00 pm today.  So of course, I had to stop eating and drinking at midnight.  For those of you who know me well, I love to eat, so this was a bit of a difficult task for me! 
We arrived at IU Health University Hospital right on time at 11:00 am.  After confirming my name, date of birth, medications, and procedure to be done about 12 times, and having two doctors draw all over my chest with a black Sharpies, I was ready for surgery. 
They let me walk down to the OR.  What a strange feeling it is to walk into your OR and jump up onto that very skinny table.  After one more round of confirming my name, date of birth, and procedure to be done, all five people in the room got busy.  The anesthesiologist was attaching very cold stickers to me.  One nurse was covering me with warm blankets, while another was putting on the blood pressure cuff.  Another nurse was putting on those wonderful leg massage cuffs that I absolutely love!  And one final nurse was adjusting my arms and giving me oxygen.  Did I mention that this was ALL happening at the same TIME!  But then, it all went dark.
What did they do?  They removed my miserable, heavy stone-like expanders and replaced them with silicone implants.  This is an outpatient procedure, so I am home and resting. 
How do I feel?  Not too bad really. I was starving, so Ben and I went to eat at McAlister's Deli on the way home. Yum!  I am in pain, but I am feeling well enough to type this, and hang out in the recliner with my kids. 
How do they look?  I don't yet.  I'm in too much pain to remove my bandages.  So for now, I'm saying, they probably look hot! :)
Thank you for all of your prayers!  I am so thankful for my family and friends that have been so great along the way!  Love to all of you! 

Ready to Fly

This is a poem I wrote in Bonnie Maurer's "Healing Power of Writing" breakout session during the Cancer Support Community's Survivors Symposium that I attended a couple weeks ago.  We were given about ten minutes to write a poem using "I am" to begin each sentence. 

Ready to Fly

I am suddenly a changed woman.
I am breast cancer woman.
I am a HER2+ and ER+ woman.
I am a surprised woman.
I am a scared woman.
I am a tough decision making woman.

I am suddenly a changed woman.
I am a humorous woman.
I am a strong woman.
I am a tough woman.
I am a don't need help woman.
I am superwoman.

I am suddenly a changed woman.
I am a scarred woman.
I am a woman without breasts.
I am a woman with little hair.
I am a woman who doesn't feel beautiful.
I am a woman whose body has changed.

I am suddenly a changed woman.
I am an accepting woman.
I am a woman who had cancer.
I am a woman who grew new wings.
I am a thriving woman.
I am ready to fly.

~Lori Tragesser

Butterflying from a Cancer Survivor to a Sur-Thriver


     Cancer Survivor...not something I ever dreamed I would be calling myself, especially at 42 years old.  But here I am...a survivor joining a group of over 13 million Americans other survivors.  Now while that is a large group of people, it is actually only about 4% of the population.  So now that I am a survivor, what do I do?  Because the journey certainly doesn't just end here.  Somehow the survivor now needs to become the sur-thriver.
     The first thing I decided to do was attend the 9th Annual Cancer Support Community's Survivors Symposium in Indianapolis.  On June 15, I had the privilege to share my day with about 100 other cancer survivors.  It was on this day that I realized how important other survivors are to my journey.  It is such a powerful moment when others confirm your feelings, isn't it?  The reality that you are not the only one going through this.  You are not the only person who is dealing with these struggles...it is very comforting!
      The highlight of my day was meeting Anne Ryder during our butterfly release.  For those of you not from Indiana, Anne Ryder is an Emmy Award winning television journalist and writer, as well as an amazing speaker. Among her many accomplishments, she was the only American reporter in more than a decade to be granted a sit-down interview with Mother Theresa. An outstanding interview  I remember watching years ago.
     Anne was the keynote speaker at the symposium.  She began with a description of what she calls our 'golden thread'; the thread that weaves a tapestry of connections in our lives.  When your life changes in an instant, you can choose to thrive and use the experience for a higher good, bringing new positive connections into your life. Anne explains, "The thread of connection becomes the 'golden thread' through which love and healing take on a transcendent power and turn something tragic into something triumphant."  I immediately thought of my blog, and how all of you who read it are connected to my 'golden thread'.  With your reading and sharing, you have help send healing power through my thread.
     Anne then told a beautiful story about butterflies relating them to the 'golden thread'.  Now for years, I have been fascinated with the mysterious monarch butterflies and the journey they make to Mexico each year.  Each summer, my kids and I walk to the creek to find milkweed housing caterpillars. We bring them home and put them and plenty of milkweed in jars.  Within a few days, they begin making their cocoon.  As you can see in the picture on the right, the cocoon has what looks like a 'golden thread' running through it.  When the monarch butterfly removes itself from its cocoon, we send them on their way. 
     As you can imagine, I was thrilled to hear that we were going to be releasing butterflies to recognize the courage and strength of survivors, as well as in memory of those who have succumbed to the disease.  It was a beautiful, peaceful moment for me as I released two butterflies for myself and in memory of my Aunt Barbara and my cousin Lori. 
     So while I am happy to have survived what I hope is the worst of it...my journey doesn't end here.  I am out of that cocoon that cancer put me in. I must spread my new wings to become a sur-thriver!
Remember when life changes in an instant...
what you get from the journey comes with who you surround yourself with along the way. 



















Thanks Anne!


I didn't break my promise Karen King...all in memory of you!
I miss you!




The New Normal...How Do We Establish a New Normal in Our Lives After the Cancer is Gone?


   Two weeks ago, I was so happy to be finished with my chemo treatments!  Wow, what a relief!   I went to get that chemo infusion every week while keeping my family's schedule together and going to work...somehow I pulled through it. You can walk away with a real sense of pride, because you did it! 
   I knew the 12 weeks of chemo would be the worst of what I would go through. So I thought that even though I wasn't finished with everything else, I could still get my life back to normal. And of course, I felt like everyone else was waiting for me to get my life back to normal.  But I am quickly learning that what we are really talking about is a new normal.  How do we establish this new normal in our lives after the cancer is gone?  I know that this is a question that many of us are struggling with right now.
   I just want to feel like me and feel wonderful again. But I don't feel wonderful!  I am still exhausted everyday with weak and achy muscles.  I still have one more surgery in a couple of weeks. Because I still have the expanders, I can't do much physical activity.  I am terribly uncomfortable with my hair, as it is a constant reminder of what I have been through.  Cancer changes who we are.  I don't think that we can be the same person that we were before diagnosis.  Sometimes when we stand on this threshold of new and different, it can be a lonely and scary place.
   As I continue to do a lot of soul searching, as well as research, I have learned that we need to go easy on ourselves. As mothers and employees, this is a hard thing for us to do, isn't it?  We continue to try to do it all. We need to let others around us know that we are not back to normal. We need to be patient and give our bodies time to heal.  As our body is dealing with chemo, mastectomies, menopause, and other body changes, we need to remember that we are far more than the sum of our physical parts.  Processing our emotions helps us in accepting what is happening to our bodies. We need to see the importance of  staying positive and expressing how we feel. Maybe we do this by talking with our spouse, or a relative, or a friend.  Some women find comfort in support groups while others may find writing a journal helpful.  I have found writing this blog is a therapeutic way for me to process my feelings, while sharing my journey with relatives and friends.  
   In our transition into our new normal, we may feel the need to reassess our life choices.  We may find we are less willing to be tolerant of what we may have put with before cancer. We may find changes in our lifestyles and our attitudes that we need to make. And this is okay, as we may vow to start living a life more true to who we really are. 
So I will try to embrace this new normal I have been given, as I realize now that life isn't going to be what it was before cancer.  Sometimes you have to be thankful for the bad things in your life, for they open you eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before. 
Stay strong and positive! 
We can do this!!